Ali Siddiq Is Free

To begin each stand-up set, comic Ali Siddiq sits and waits for the viewers to settle down. He’s received so much to inform them, and he’s not in a rush. For almost twenty years, the Houston native’s materials targeted on observations on a reasonably commonplace set of matters: rising up, parenting, relationship, coping with white folks. That modified in January 2015, when Siddiq appeared on Comedy Central’s internet sequence This Is Not Happening and talked about his jail expertise for the primary time. In the set, he walks the viewers by way of the day he was current for a jail riot with out added punch traces. The success of the episode, which presently has virtually 15 million views, led to a 2018 Comedy Central particular, It’s Bigger Than These Bars, which he shot in a Texas jail whereas interacting with prisoners and sharing extra tales of his time of incarceration. But that particular solely appeared to lift extra questions on his time behind bars, so he determined to return to the start.

The Domino Effect is a tetralogy of stand-up specials about Siddiq’s life from the age of 10 to 25. The first Domino Effect covers ages 10 to fifteen, opening on his determination to maneuver in along with his unreliable father who would hand him a gun and go away him house alone for days. This results in Siddiq promoting crack in hopes of constructing sufficient cash to purchase a recent tracksuit. The almost hour-and-a-half set builds to Siddiq’s a number of failed makes an attempt to kill a neighborhood robust man named Quincy. The particular debuted on YouTube in 2022 and now has virtually 13 million views.

2023’s The Domino Effect Part 2: Loss covers Siddiq from ages 15 to 19, on the peak of his drug-dealing days. He tells a narrative about exhibiting as much as a soccer recreation at his highschool in a fur coat and one other about being locked into the trunk of his automobile. In one notably devastating second, Siddiq breaks down crying whereas speaking about his youthful sister, whose dying at age 8 led Siddiq to remodel: “I’m so dead inside. I’m a fucking monster in the streets.” The particular ends along with his arrest.

The Domino Effect Part 3: First Day of School and The Domino Effect Part 4: Pins and Needles have been shot collectively in the summertime of 2023. First Day of School, which debuted in May 2024, covers Siddiq’s in the end futile makes an attempt to struggle his prices. Pins and Needles, which premieres on YouTube on June 16, depicts each the enjoyment and brutality of the comic’s six years in jail. At the beginning of Part 4, he’s 19 and nonetheless very a lot a child, selecting fights as a manner of getting out of the “soft tank.” By the top, he’s 25, an elder on the within.

Siddiq explains how he turned a comic within the fourth and ultimate particular. “I didn’t start telling jokes to protect myself,” he says. Instead, he entertained inmates in closed custody, who’re solely allowed outdoors their cell for one hour a day. They don’t have entry to a tv, so Siddiq recapped episodes of Martin for them by taking part in all of the characters. When the present went off the air, Siddiq pivoted by telling tales about what was taking place in different elements of the jail. This stays his fashion to at the present time: lengthy tales advised with out embellishment, full of totally embodied characters.

The Domino Effect sequence is an achievement with out precedent within the historical past of stand-up. It combines the greatness of Siddiq’s story and the greatness of his storytelling, and it’s a grasp work in its capacity to seize how trauma will get handed to future generations all through communities, how violence turns into normalized, and the way the American criminal-justice system preys upon the economically disenfranchised. Three years, and 6 hours of stand-up, over 18 million views on YouTube, and one book later, Siddiq is completed with the sequence. He has two different stand-alone specials he’s been touring about his present-day life as a middle-aged mother or father. After releasing these, he has plans to embark on a brand new sequence about making an attempt to pursue a profession in stand-up whereas on parole. The objective by way of his work, Siddiq says, is to be so synonymous with this type of serialized specials that his fellow comedians title it after him. “Now I know there are going to be a bunch of other people trying it,” says Siddiq. “They should call it ‘the Ali.’”

Each of the specials is nicely over an hour, made up of a number of tales clocking in at over 20 or half-hour. I can title very few comedians who can tell stories as long as you. How did you write the fabric for the specials?
I do know the tales; I don’t have to put in writing them. The manner that I inform the story is predicated upon how my household has at all times advised tales. They pull you in with some off-the-wall subject, then they go from there and also you’re like, “What happened?”

Like, if I’m telling the story about this interview, I’m not going to go away out that there’s one other glass of water over there, and I’m going to make folks focused on that reality. Like, “So I’m in this room, and the guy who’s interviewing me has a glass of water. I have a bottle of water, but there’s another glass of water in there. So then the whole time we talking, I just keep wondering, Whose glass is that? It’s a full glass of water. The person who left that glass of water, they probably thirsty somewhere, and they probably looking for it.” And now I’ve mentioned that, I transfer to, “It’s nothing worse than putting your drink down somewhere. How much stuff can happen when you put your drink down?” It spins off into all this different stuff: “When I left, I said to myself, ‘If that interviewer drink that water out of that glass, he nasty.’” Then I’d say, “You know something? I’m wrong. Now, if he drank out that glass of water, he’s perfectly by his rights, because I damn sure ate a Ricola off the table that could have been in somebody’s back pocket for two weeks.” I’m going to say all of these items.

You clearly have loads of tales. How do you establish what goes in a particular?
Specials can’t be present. Specials must have views. If I did a particular on present occasions and took a place on Puffy, then a month later the video of him kicking Cassie is out now, my goddamn particular is senseless no extra. People assume they’ll simply movie their membership present and name it a particular. I did that with Don’t Judge a Book by Its Cover, and I known as it an hour. It’s an hour of excellent stand-up with me being free in a membership, doing my factor, and permitting folks to snigger uncontrollably. But I didn’t provide you with something to be taught from, in order that doesn’t make it particular.

In the primary Domino Effect, you begin by pinpointing the precise second the place all the things began going mistaken in your life: once you have been 10 and determined to maneuver in together with your father. When and the way did you pinpoint that was the pivotal mistake in your trajectory?
I used to be in jail, and I had time to assume, When did I modify?

When I moved in with my pops, it was a unique way of life. He was nonetheless dwelling mainly like a bachelor, very fast-paced. This man would depart me at house on my own. He’d be like, “Hey, man, don’t die while you out doing whatever you’re trying to figure out.” When I used to be 10, his factor was like, “Grow up.” Living with him, I grew out of the 10-year-old section.

When my son was 10, he was actually 10. Nobody had put cocaine on his tooth, and there wasn’t no one round him promoting any sort of medicine or leaving him at house by himself.

In the Domino Effect book, you write about how, earlier than you moved in together with your father, your mom had a live-in boyfriend who abused you. You say the “trauma and anger” he triggered in you has gotten you into fights and even in jail. Why didn’t you embody that story within the specials?
It’s not lined as a result of it’s not settled. I don’t assume folks perceive me. I’m not the kind of individual that’ll permit you to do one thing to me and get away with it. It’s like the story with Mitchell, the C.O. I attempted to kill in jail, or Quincy, who cracked me in my eye after I was 15 in order that I nonetheless see double in that eye. It is any individual that I nonetheless received an issue with.

To at the present time, I don’t like males touching me. Every week, I’m virtually going to get arrested on the TSA. As quickly as they are saying “We got to search you” … I don’t really need your fingers on me. It got here from three cases. This man tried to molest me after I was 6. A man tried to molest me after I was 9. My mother advised me, “Hey, if somebody tries to touch you or somebody does something to you, come tell me.” Unfortunately, the individual after I was 6 was a member of the family.

Then I used to be being abused from 7 to 9. It’s unlucky, however I blame my father lots of the time for me being abused by that man. You didn’t make your presence felt sufficient, bro. I blamed my dad then began to shift the blame to my mother, who was not round for any of those occasions. But how can she be? She’s at work. She’s making an attempt to make it possible for we are able to eat. The man isn’t just abusing me; he’s abusing my mother. Why was she with him? Because now she’s ready of want, and my dad was simply dwelling his life, and I used to be within the center with no precise solutions.

In the primary two specials, you get into the ups and downs of your drug dealing. How a lot have been you making, and what was your relationship to the cash?
At 14 to fifteen, I’m making anyplace from $300 to $600 a day. I felt like I used to be actually getting in at the moment, however, as I look again, that’s truly low. And I’m stacking this cash, as a result of I actually don’t have nowhere to spend it. I can’t actually purchase a bunch of stuff, so after I actually flexed was at college. I’d go to the lunch room and be like, “Yo, man, I need a shrimp basket and a chicken basket.” I used to be flossing.

Fifteen to 16, I received bread and labored jobs to attempt to disguise the place I used to be actually getting cash. I labored at Kroger — or we known as it “K. Rogers” — merging that cash with the cash I used to be making on the streets. When I misplaced that job, I’m out within the streets pretending like I had a job. Then, at 17, I get the McDonald’s gig, and I’m transferring crack out of the window of McDonald’s. They order one thing, and I simply put it in a bag out the window of the drive-through. You understand how McDonald’s received that factor up there that claims “Billions Served”? Hey, man, no less than 60 to 70 of these servings are mine.

I’ve at all times been a saver. If I made $600, I’d spend $30; $400, I’d spend $20; $300, I’d spend about $15. Why am I like this? When I’m 14, I’ve my first half-ounce, nevertheless it was given on consignment, so I owe the man above me his a reimbursement. Even as a stand-up; I did a present final week, and after the present, I received paid a lot lower than I assumed I used to be going to be paid. I assumed the promoter was going to ship the remainder on Monday, so I paid everyone on my payroll — street supervisor, function, assistant, my supervisor — based mostly on what I assumed I’d make ultimately. But Monday I simply received paid to cowl journey, like $500. I’m too honorable to name everyone and say, “Hey, I’ve overpaid everyone. I need some of that money back.” So I did a theater present however ended up making as a lot as if I did a visitor spot at a membership.

I did a photograph shoot with you guys. I spent $3,000 on my outfit pondering that present would find yourself paying for it. I used to be like, Oh nicely, Ali, you’ve made $12. [Laughs.] Aye, it’s the price of enterprise.

In Domino Effect 2, you inform the story about how, once you’re 18, you modify after your youthful sister Ashley will get sick and dies on the age of 8. What was so significant about that relationship?
The motive why I really like her a lot is she was the child that I truly needed to be in my household. By the time my mother had her, she was solidified. My stepdad, Ron, which is Ashley’s father, was in the home and an excellent man. It can be simple for me and my older sister to be jealous of this case, nevertheless it was so good to see my mother being a mom — to have the ability to loosen up and go to work and are available house and be together with her child. She received an opportunity to be a mother, and I liked being a giant brother. At 3 p.m., my complete complete drug-dealing life shut down, as a result of at 3:15 I needed to decide my little sister up. I wouldn’t care what I used to be doing. Then I’d decide again up at 5 or 6 at night time, after she was straight. I’d’ve by no means put her in hurt’s manner. My little sister Ashley was my peace.

With her passing, it’s nonetheless these moments of significance together with her that permit me know that she was most likely stronger than me. I hate going again to that second of the final time she touched me. My mother advised me to look at her, and I used to be making an attempt to feed her some oatmeal and … [starts choking up] She simply wasn’t trying proper. I’m making an attempt to speak to her like, “Hey, shorty, listen, man, be strong. You gotta eat this oatmeal so you can get better …” [Siddiq gets tearful.] I known as my mother: “Hey, you got to come. She don’t look right.” I say to her, “Yo, shorty, you can beat this … [voice breaking] whatever this … whatever this is.” I’m sitting on the sofa, and she or he reaches her arm and put it over my head and checked out me. I checked out her and she or he mentioned, “I’m gonna be all right.” And I knew she would go.

How did dropping her change you? How would your life have been totally different in the event you hadn’t?
I’m already within the streets by that time, however I’m not robust like that. I ain’t misplaced no one. And, man … I used to be not ready. Everybody’s listening to about my sister’s passing. I’m on the street, so I can’t present no weak point. This was going to be the individual to save lots of me from being no matter type of monster I used to be going to turn into in these streets. I’d have been a unique individual if she wouldn’t have handed. I most likely would have gotten out of drug gross sales very quick. I wouldn’t have went until I received busted. I most likely would’ve simply received a automobile, then went to both culinary faculty or went to go be a Navy SEAL.

Looking again, what did you be taught from this expertise?
Ashley’s passing gave me probably the most readability in life about dying. I don’t have time to carry grudges. Even the person who abused us, I most likely wouldn’t harm him. I’d simply let him understand how I felt about that point, regardless that I’ve a scar on the aspect of my hip from when he hit me with a belt buckle. Quincy is totally different, as a result of folks take a look at my face and see the scar. One eye is larger than the opposite one as a result of the eyeball was turned over. I’ve completed some issues to Quincy, however is it important sufficient? [Laughs.] I received a fairly good life.

What was it wish to carry out this night time after night time?
I made the choice to not tour Part 2. We shot it that Saturday, and that was it. I wanted my older sister to be there to be a crutch, so to talk, simply in case I couldn’t get by way of it. I didn’t know what that second was going to be, however I knew it was going to be laborious. It is only a actual horrible second that hopefully individuals are capable of be taught from.

In Domino Effect Part 3, you undergo the consumption for jail. You describe being bare, having the officer stick his fingers in your mouth, being requested to show round and unfold your cheeks, and ultimately being chained to a different prisoner and placed on a bus. What did you wish to convey to individuals who have by no means skilled this? 
This system has lots of parallels to the economic advanced of slavery. It’s free labor, they usually’re not making an attempt to rehabilitate folks. They’re making an attempt to make it laborious and brutal. I’m not saying that they shouldn’t be, however they’re making an attempt to make cash as nicely, then sending folks again out with no expertise and their our bodies damaged. I’m not on a ship, however I’m chained to any individual on a bus. They fed us these things known as VitaPro. It was the worst factor, and it was popping out of individuals’s our bodies in boils. It can be like the scale of this water bottle, however when you add water, it may well blow as much as as massive as this desk, to feed extra inmates these things. It was loopy.

Domino Effect Part 4 has just a few tales during which you and your fellow inmates are having enjoyable. There’s a body-builder-esque pose-off, and there’s a narrative the place you dunk on somebody in a basketball recreation. You clearly don’t need jail to appear cool, however you additionally wish to present these folks as people who’ve the capability of getting pleasure. How do you steadiness that?
That was the toughest factor. It’s virtually just like the coaches that used to work contained in the prisons. They wish to hold you lively, however they don’t need you to have enjoyable to some extent the place you’re feeling like, Oh, this can be a cool place to be. I decide and select the issues that deter you from wanting to come back, then not give it the stereotypical facet.

It’s additionally a spot the place politics occur — the place in the event you make this error, you possibly can be taught, however you’re going to be taught in probably the most harmful setting, as a result of everyone here’s a menace. It’s not a cakewalk, however this can be a place the place you’re going to must be taught to speak. You’re going to must be taught to be a person. You’re going to have to face on what you say. This is a spot of lots of heavy penalties for errors.

Can you consider an instance?
In jail, man, you actually simply didn’t disrespect folks. I’m not even disrespecting the little nerdy, glasses-on white man doing a puzzle. I by no means noticed no one disrespect Mouse, and Old School advised me, “Hey, bro, about eight months ago, that motherfucker boiled up some type of concoction and threw it on that boy over there with one eye. Shit, burnt his whole shit.” “Was he racist?” “Oh, no. It’s just if you decide that you’re going to bother him, you’re going to get some hot shit thrown on you.” I’m speaking about boiling water, placing bleaching powder and a few Jolly Ranchers and a Snickers in there, so when he sprint your ass with it, you’re making an attempt to get the sweet off, however the chemical is peeling your fucking pores and skin, and he’s razoring your ass whilst you’re making an attempt to wipe it off. So, I knew in the event you slap that little white boy, assure you going to wish beauty surgical procedure.

The first domino in Domino Effect Part 4 comes when, on the detention heart, you make your “first mistake” when the warden asks you in the event you can deal with your self in jail, and also you say with a shrug, “We’ll see.” This ends in them placing you within the “soft tank,” the place you indicate virtually everyone seems to be homosexual.
But everyone’s not. Some are Cadillacing.

Yes, however your choice is the choice: a cell block full of different younger people who find themselves combating on a regular basis. And you’re advised the one manner you’re going to get moved is in the event you get right into a struggle. Then you hear somebody getting a blowjob at night time, and also you resolve to start out hitting folks. The first time I watched this half, I did really feel prefer it could possibly be laborious for some folks, who’re simply watching you beat up folks as a result of they’re homosexual. What have been you hoping to convey?
There’s no knock on the folks there, however y’all not telling me one thing once you’re placing me in that cellblock. I’m asking properly to maneuver, telling the warden, “Hey, man, I think y’all categorize me wrong.” And the C.O. advised me, “Hey, man, there’s only one way out. It’s either this or you cause trouble. You clearly don’t belong over here, but they not letting you go, so deal with it.” But I don’t wish to cope with it; I wish to get out of right here: No knock on y’all, however I’m out. And I inform it actually.

Why have been you not snug staying within the “soft tank”?
I wasn’t assaulting folks for the sake of assaulting. This is a self-preservation factor. It’s not a hate factor. I don’t have any animosity towards anyone. If they’d have put me in a tank of murderers, I’d struggle to get out. I wanted to get out for my very own fucking security. I’m a five-foot-seven, 120-pound man. If they put me in a child-abuser tank, I’d’ve completed what it took to get out, as a result of I do know the importance of being in right here with the mistaken label. And I’m not evaluating another way of life to being a rapist or something; I’m evaluating the labels that folks placed on folks on this explicit setting of incarceration. You don’t need a label.

I’m right here as a result of I didn’t have a tag that put me in jeopardy. And I don’t assume folks perceive that jeopardy isn’t just one-on-one. You need me to get fucking gang raped in goddamn jail by Hispanics? By the whites? By the Blacks? What would you like me, as a baby, to do? I’ve already mentioned I made some errors within the lead-up to it, as a result of I didn’t converse up like I used to be presupposed to. I’m fucking 50 years outdated. This is after I was 19. Do you assume that I’m going round fucking stabbing folks now? My road mentality just isn’t my house mentality. What is sensible in jail doesn’t make sense on the road.

I’ll provide you with an instance. If any individual was to name you a “bitch” in free society, what’s your response?

I’d say “fuck you” or no matter.
“Fuck you!” If any individual calls you a “bitch” in jail and 1,500 inmates heard him name you that, I’d let you know, “Aye, man, you got to respond to that.” [Does an impression of the interviewer.] “Respond to it, why? It’s just a word.” No, no, you’re going to must do greater than that, as a result of it’s not a standard setting. In our present setting, if any individual steals from you, you go make a police report. If any individual steals from you in jail, you don’t go inform the C.O.’s. You go get your shit again by any means needed.

You don’t make any “prison rape” jokes within the particular.
It is hack. It’s ridiculous to concentrate on such remoted conditions. More folks write books in jail and go to varsity than get raped. I believe that folks nonetheless see jail because the ’40s.

How would you describe the morality or the sense of justice you had in jail?
In jail, we deemed rapists and molesters incurable. Society offers them a thousand probabilities. In jail, you get one shot at it, then if we get you — if we catch you — you’re going to pay for that. You killed 16 girls? I’m itching on your ass to be in my cell. I’m sitting on my bunk, scarier than a motherfucker. You see what occurred to Whitey Bulger or Jeffrey Dahmer. Whoever you assume that you’re when you come to jail, this shit is even, child.

Domino Effect Part 4 ends with you being launched after six years. What did you wish to seize about getting out and coming house from jail?
The criminal-justice system is flawed. If you’re going to be actually rehabilitated, you must do this your self. You don’t put together on your life on the skin when you get out; you must begin on the within. That’s why when Big Hand Rick asks what I’m going to do after I get out and I say I’m going to be a comic, the viewers understands that I’m fascinated by the skin already. I’m so enthusiastic about coming house however so scared on the similar time. This is all nervous vitality. That’s why 4 is known as Pins and Needles.

Then there was the factor about me not telling those that I used to be getting out and me not figuring out what to inform folks on the free aspect about what I used to be going to do. So I’m simply on this steadiness of like, Man, I’m petrified to get out, as a result of this has turn into regular to me. I’m very regular and revered right here. I wish to go house, nevertheless it’s very scary.

“Years ago, people would ask, ‘Man, why haven’t you gotten bigger in comedy?’ And I was like, ‘Because I hadn’t paid the universe back the things for what I did.’”
Photo: Allie Leepson + Jesse McClary

In the years after you left jail, would you run into folks out of your previous when making an attempt to make it as a comic, whether or not folks you bought medication with or dealt to?
For my core group, there’s an general satisfaction in us making it out and everyone doing nicely in one other discipline, however in any other case I don’t relish in it. Most of the time I don’t run into folks from my previous, as a result of I’m so unhappy about my habits at the moment. Being a former street-pharmaceutical rep just isn’t a badge of honor to me.

If I bumped into somebody I dealt to, I’d be elated that they’re nonetheless alive. I used to be in ’Frisco for the Comedy Central competition. Walking to the venue was laborious for me. I went ten other ways, as a result of I didn’t wish to hold strolling previous homeless folks and those that’s on medication as a result of I used to be in a really, very darkish place. I used to be actually blaming myself. I’m like, Yo, man, what did I do to contribute to this? This didn’t begin final week. This is the individuals who I bought dope to who had youngsters. This is the offspring of the chemically dependent. I’m nonetheless so affected by my explicit crime. It saddens me that I used to be part of that destruction. Years in the past, folks would ask, “Man, why haven’t you gotten bigger in comedy?” And I used to be like, “Because I hadn’t paid the universe back the things for what I did.”

The 12 months you bought out of jail was the 12 months Oz premiered on HBO. Did you watch?
I watched each episode.

What did you assume?
That’s why I didn’t watch Orange Is the New Black. I’d watch Oz and be like, What!? A gun? He’s simply going to grow his nails into some claws, and no officer’s going to say nothing? What is all this free strolling round? It was simply so many issues.

Are there any reveals or films you’ve seen that you just felt received it proper?
Life with Eddie Murphy and Martin Lawrence, as a result of it portrays the main points prefer it truly goes. There’s an precise order. One of the No. 1 particulars that I knew whoever made it took his time and had a advisor with them was a scene the place Eddie Murphy is getting beat up by the massive dude. Now that occurs, proper? Most folks would assume probably the most harmful individual in that jail was that massive dude, however when he was beating Eddie Murphy up, any individual mentioned, “That’s enough. He’s had enough. Pick him up.” The one who mentioned that’s the most harmful individual within the jail. It’s so refined, however that’s the reality.

What would you inform Hollywood if all of Hollywood was listening earlier than they have been to make one other undertaking about jail?
I wouldn’t give Hollywood a tip on doing something.

Got it.
I’m like, “No. Y’all keep making the fictitious stuff that you make. I’m going to keep making my independent things that I’m making.” They don’t hear anyway.

I think about over time of this undertaking, you’ve gotten some curiosity in adapting this right into a film. What have these conversations been like?
It’s been very enjoyable having the conversations and folks placing collectively sizzle reels and saying, “This is what I think it could look like.” Then we get all the way down to the “Who’s going to own it?” half, and that is when the dialog will get totally different. Now they like, “Oh, he’s a very shrewd businessman.” I’m not simply an artist. People are coming to me eager to do issues with one thing that I’ve already financed and made. They received to know how targeted my thoughts is on being a really unbiased proprietor. Now, I do know it’s going to take some time for me to win Emmys, as a result of that’s a unique sort of machine, and I perceive how it could disrupt that machine if an unbiased received an Emmy. If you possibly can win Emmys as an unbiased, now there’s no want for the community.

We’re speaking proper after Netflix’s massive comedy competition occurred, and there was this comic brunch. I don’t know in the event you noticed a photo of it on Instagram. Do you see that, and does any a part of you wish to be part of that?
I’d be mendacity if I mentioned no. I’m probably not part of Black Hollywood or the Black comedy circles, as a result of I used to be on Comedy Central. They overlook I used to be on Comic View and Def Jam and Bounce TV. But generally I’ve not been round, and there’s been years the place I’ve been very unapproachable.

I’m on the brink of begin one other sequence known as In the Shadows. It is an account of how I received into stand-up. Now I’m out of jail and I’m making an attempt to be in a public enterprise, however I’m making an attempt to be an individual that doesn’t wish to be seen as a result of I’m on parole. When you’re on parole, you might be on the mercy of society. I’m actually not up there being true to myself, as a result of I don’t need no one to know nothing about me. I don’t need folks to have the ability to tie me to something. So I don’t wish to be round. No footage. I’m actually standoffish.

And I’m not the one that shucks and jives. That’s the opposite half that retains me away. I don’t wish to go someplace and be faux. I’m too glad of an individual to be in an area the place folks resolve — the important thing phrase is “decide” — to be sad or trigger friction or convey one thing into the craft that’s not there.

I’m a 100% full road individual, if any individual would give me a label. You can discuss no matter, however I’m not going to be in a beef with you, as a result of in the event you’re beefing with me and also you’re not a road individual, I’m not differentiating between the 2. You can’t say nothing about me after which say, “I was just playing.” No, I don’t play, although. But I really like Sinbad.

Did you watch Katt Williams’s special?
Oh my God, y’all. I’ve this capacity to look at your trailer and see all the things I must see. When you have got a chance to truly be nice — when you have got all eyes on you — and you are taking that chance to shoot down everyone round you? The vitality that you just put into saying untruths, misrepresenting issues … If you’ll have put an oz of that vitality into your particular, into your craft, it could had been worthy of being talked about. All I can say is shoppers like what they like, folks make the cash how they make it, and Netflix buys and chooses what they select.

You described doing Beyond These Bars as repaying a debt to society, which is an fascinating manner of placing it, as a result of that’s hypothetically what going to jail is meant to be for. How a lot do you continue to really feel like there’s a debt?
I don’t really feel it. I believe I’ve paid it again. People don’t … Man, it is best to’ve requested that query earlier than you requested the final one, as a result of I’m nonetheless caught on it.

Do you have got extra you wish to say?
No. I’m not going to waste my time speaking about any individual else. I don’t Club Shay Shay it up. I simply discuss what I would like to speak about.

I don’t assume I owe anymore. I paid again the debt from my youth. That’s why I’ve reached a sure degree of success, to me. I needed to be a comic book. I needed to have the ability to maintain myself and feed my household. I needed to be a pillar in the neighborhood. I needed to be this pure human being and have the ability to develop meals. I’ve achieved that, so to me, I’m profitable. It’s nearly being extra accountable now: apologizing once you get the possibility and truly being a extra understanding human. So I believe the universe is now giving me just a little extra again than me having to present it.

“I’m elated, man, by this type of freedom. I can go get whatever I want to go get. I can do whatever I want to go do. I’m in this world with no restrictions. If I wanted to go buy a Bentley on a Tuesday, I’mma go do it. Who would have thought this shit?”
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You didn’t discuss dealing medication or jail for almost twenty years as a stand-up since you have been involved about being seen as a one-trick pony. At the identical time, I think about that should’ve been a psychological burden for you. Now that you’ve got launched these specials, do you’re feeling freed from that point?
I’m gonna be 51 in October. Growing up and listening to those folks say, “I worked at a job for 30 years,” “I worked at a job for 40 years,” “I just retired from a job after 50 years” I’ve been doing this for 30 years. I by no means thought I’d say that. It is outstanding.

I’m a fucking glad individual about reaching what I mentioned that I used to be going to attain. I might die and be like, “Yo, man, I fucking did it, bro.” I checked all of the containers. I didn’t wish to transfer out of Houston. I needed to do nice specials. I didn’t wish to be judged as being an awesome stand-up on a film or a sitcom or a video or a track or any of that. I needed to be judged on stand-up. My mama proud, my household proud, my youngsters proud, and I fucking did it on my own. I’m elated, man, by one of these freedom. I can go get no matter I wish to go get. I can do no matter I wish to go do. I’m on this world with no restrictions. If I needed to go purchase a Bentley on a Tuesday, I’mma go do it. Who would have thought this shit? The different day, I noticed how nicely Domino Effect 3 was doing, and I fucking jumped within the air for fucking pleasure. Like I used to be a baby.

Old School and Mouse have been fellow inmates. Siddiq says Old School was “probably only about five years older than I was at the time. In prison, you don’t know everybody; you just called them by what other people called them.” Siddiq says he not often interacted with Mouse; he simply knew that “he would throw something hot on you if you tried to do something to him that he didn’t want to be done.”

When he’s first put within the “soft tank,” Siddiq asks an older prisoner about it, and he says, “It’s not soft, it’s Cadillac” — a cellblock the place an inmate might be “laid back” and have a neater expertise serving their time.

Big Hand Rick was a fellow inmate from Dallas who’s talked about in Domino Effect Part 4. When Siddiq tells him he’s going to be a comic, Big Hand Rick tells him, “I’ve been here a long time, man. I’ve heard a lot of people say a lot of things. This is the only time I really believe somebody.”