Billy Joel has faced serious struggles, which he shares in the documentary “Billy Joel: And So It Goes.” At one point, he even thought about ending his life. This film, recently shown at the Tribeca Festival, highlights some dark moments in his life, including two suicide attempts tied to an affair with his bandmate’s wife.
In the documentary, Joel reflects on his time in the band Attila, which he formed with his best friend Jon Small. Joel moved in with Small, his wife Elizabeth Weber, and their young son. Over time, a romantic connection developed between Joel and Weber, something that upset everyone involved. Joel confessed to Small, leading to a heartbreaking fallout.
Joel explained, “I felt very, very guilty. I loved a woman, but I felt like a homewrecker.” This guilt took a heavy toll on him. After the affair ended, he spiraled into drinking and faced a deep depression. He even became homeless, feeling trapped in a cycle of pain.
He said during this tough time, “I figured, ‘That’s it. I don’t want to live anymore.’” These feelings led to his first suicide attempt. His sister, Judy, gave him sleeping pills, which resulted in a coma that lasted days. Judy recalled, “I thought that I’d killed him.”
In a second attempt, Joel drank cleaning fluid. Ironically, it was Small who brought him to the hospital this time. Despite their friendship ending, Joel recognized, “Jon saved my life.”
After these dark moments, Joel sought help and found a way to express his feelings through music. This emotional outlet contributed to his later success as an artist.
Years later, Joel and Weber married but divorced after nearly a decade. They’re back in touch today, and Weber continues to support him, especially as he cancels tour dates to address health issues. Joel was diagnosed with normal pressure hydrocephalus (NPH), a condition impacting his brain. Weber praised his work ethic, stating, “He’s worked so hard all of his life.”
His story reveals the importance of seeking help during tough times, a message that resonates with many, especially given rising mental health concerns today. According to recent statistics, nearly 20% of U.S. adults experienced mental illness in 2021, highlighting the ongoing need for support and awareness.
The documentary “Billy Joel: And So It Goes” will air on HBO in July. It provides an honest look into Joel’s life, emphasizing resilience and recovery through music.